These storm clouds don’t have a silver lining.

Yesterday, I inadvertently hurt two very wonderful people in my life.

One was a fellow blogger.  The other was my dear aunt.  The incidents were completely unrelated, but it was a heartbreaking way to begin the day.  I have sent private apologies to both of these two women, and done everything I can to make amends.

My post, that I wrote in a highly-emotionally-charged state, has been removed.  While my intentions were to encourage support for another blogger, my writing did not portray what I meant it to.

I overlooked the fact that I betrayed her trust and I seriously crossed a line.

My aunt had initiated a conversation about my pregnancy.  My attempts at explaining to my aunt some of our pregnancy/parenting plans was taken as a personal attack.  It was absolutely not meant to come across that way.

I have been literally sick to my stomach, nauseous all day as I have run the conversations over and over in my head, trying to decide on the best courses of action.  I am not a perfect person, I take full responsibility for my gross oversights. For my full-on FUCK-UPS.

My previous post had very few views, and by removing the post it will never be seen again.  I wish with all my might that I had never published it.

I wish I had not alienated my aunt.

I wish there was something more that I could do.

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2 responses to this post.

  1. You know what, none of us are perfect. I am one of the few who saw your deleted post, and I do understand why your fellow blogger felt betrayed, since the post was based on a personal email conversation (though I admit, when I read it, I did NOT think about that at all). At the same point, I also understand why you wrote what you did, and from what place in your heart you wrote what you did. You obviously meant no harm. I hope she knows that too, and I’m pretty sure she does. It just hurts, and it’s hard. But that doesn’t make you a bad person.

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  2. Everybody makes mistakes. The important thing is how you deal with/learn from those mistakes. And I’m sure they both know, from your heartfelt apologies, that you meant no harm. Forgive yourself, as I’m sure they will both forgive you.

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